Gone in 60 Seconds

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I turned 33 this month. I began experiencing life’s brokenness at 3 years old, and ever since then, I’d always felt exactly that. Broken. Three weeks ago, I reread the story of the woman with the issue of blood in Matthew 9:20-22. I remember reading that “instantly” she was healed, and I paused my reading to say, “Lord, Jesus! I want that! I want to be instantly healed! I want this pain to be gone! I know You CAN do it. But why don’t You?” I kind of forgot about that prayer and continued along with life. The next week, I went to worship in the quiet sanctuary of my childhood church. As I left, a beautiful sister in Christ who was cleaning the church stopped me and said God told her to tell me, “Whatever it is, He’s bringing you out of it! Just keep doing what you’re doing, keep worshiping, keep praising, and know that He’s bringing you out.”

I thanked her but immediately protested whatever that meant. I was so emotionally drained and didn’t want anything else to do with the healing journey God had me on. I adamantly told my husband, “I quit. I’ll heal more, later.” I couldn’t even look him in the eye because I knew I hadn’t consulted God, and I knew didn’t want to. I was done, and that was that. Thankfully, we had friends over that evening, so there wasn’t time for my pity party. By the time I reflected on that afternoon, I recalled the life-giving words God spoke through His servant the preceding day: “He’s bringing you out; whatever it is, He’s bringing you out of it!”

Fast forward two weeks to last Thursday night, when I again found myself reading about the woman with the issue of blood, but this time, from the gospel of Mark. That detailed account indicated the woman had sought many physicians “and was no better but rather grew worse.” I exclaimed, “No, Jesus! She went to all the doctors and got WORSE? No thank you, Lord! Don’t let that be my story!” One day later, Friday, God realized His promise to bring me out of that lingering emotional pain. God answered the prayers I’d forgotten I prayed, prayers to be instantly healed.

I wish I could more clearly articulate what happened last Friday. But I simply felt myself changing. The hollow feeling in my chest began to fill and just didn’t feel so weighted down, the vibrating storm inside of me calmed without me having to take deep, soothing breaths. Fear was gone, sorrow was gone, pain was gone. By the time I could second-guess this new feeling of peace, the sting of what held my captive so long was finally, completely gone. Just as Jesus knew that power had gone out from Him, I knew, without a doubt, that God’s power had come into me and made me whole.

Understand that at 33 years of age, I had never been able to utter the words, “I am whole.” I didn’t even have a framework for what experiencing wholeness would be like, and yet, as I type this, I assure you: I am whole! The lame man in Acts 3 was lame from birth, so he had no neural networks for what experiencing walking would feel like, yet he left jumping and leaping with praise. I immediately began walking in wholeness exactly two weeks after I was ready to give up! I’m convinced the enemy senses the finish line long before we do. I believe he sees the angels coming alongside us to bear us up in their arms, and THAT is when he increases attacks to discourage our faith. When you feel like giving up, know that the words God has spoken over your life will NOT return to Him void. See the warfare for what it is! Never give up, never despair; though the vision may seem slow in coming, it will not be delayed. The brokenness is gone, and I am whole. If He did it for the woman with the issue of blood, if He’d do it for me, if He’s risen with ALL power in His hand, keep believing He’ll do it for you!

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“God is more powerful than anybody’s past, no matter how wretched. He can make us forget – not by erasing the memory but by taking the sting and paralyzing effect out of it”
~Jim Cymbala

“The nature of the enemy’s warfare in your life is to cause you to become discouraged and to cast away your confidence. Not that you would necessarily discard your salvation, but you could give up your hope of God’s deliverance. The enemy wants to numb you into a coping kind of Christianity that has given up hope of seeing God’s resurrection power.”
~Bob Sorge, Glory: When Heaven Invades Earth

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77 responses to “Gone in 60 Seconds

  1. God only healed my troubled tooth lately. I could not believe it. I kept checking on it, expecting the pain to come back. Simply miraculous. I can’t even imagine what you must be feeling at this point. Thank you for finding my blog!!! I’d love to read your just the same.

    • glory to God, lady! i keep “checking” too..in various ways..it’s amazing to just feel so free of the pain. i keep looking in the mirror to see if i look any different b/c i just feel THAT different. it’s amazing. His grace is so amazing! glad we found each other 🙂

    • i love u, bri! yes, i praise Him. i praise Him and i will sing of His love forever! i will make a joyful noise to Him, my soul shall make her boast in Him, the humble shall hear thereof and be glad. thank u for rejoicing with me and praying with me 🙂

  2. Very powerful and beautiful! I truly loved reading this and I was smiling the whole time! That is fantastic that you were healed. I know God has magnificent plans for you! Keep following Him 🙂

    ~Sarah

    • God bless u, hon! glad u found joy in it. in the purpose driven life, rick warren says something to the effect of: if we are to have a “Christ-like” ministry here on earth, that means others should find healing in our wounds. it’s so true. our healed wounds should lead to others’ healing, as well. be blessed!

  3. Thank you for inboxing me on FB. I don’t get on as often as I used to, but like to catch up when I do. Your posts, your inbox messages, just your words always seem to have wisdom and bring comfort. This testimony is AWESOME! I am so glad to hear this. God be praised! I love you much.

    • Love you to pieces, Erica, i mean, Danita! 🙂 I’m glad the Spirit moves both of us, and more glad when we obey. Let’s keep each other uplifted! Glad u were blessed!

  4. What a powerful testimony! It is powerful what you said about the enemy sensing the finish line before we do. Our God is SO in control of our lives!! It is wonderful that you have found the ability to let His healing to wash over you! Thank you for your encouraging words to never give up but thank you even more for your living, REAL testimony of God’s power. I am touched deeply by the awesomeness of your experience!

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